(Trigger warning: descriptions of severe animal injury.)
Today a squirrel was hit by a car a few feet away from me while I was walking down the side walk.
Three of its legs kept twitching. I thought it had a broken leg. I came out of my stupor and went to grab it and pull it to the curb (out of the traffic). By the time I touched it, it had stopped twitching. When I moved it, there was a small pool of blood beneath it, and I saw that the other side of its face was damaged, with an eye popping out.
I think it must have died fast. Perhaps it was put unconscious immediately by head trauma. If not, it seems likely that it was by the end of its twitching, which I don’t think lasted for more than half a minute. It must have been horrifically painful, if it experienced it.
I stood there for a few minutes and got strange looks from passers by. Then I went to a restaurant and washed my hands in hot water (I never touched any blood, but…)
I felt really intensely upset for a bit, but half an hour later when I met up with someone to talk, I was mostly feeling better. It was disturbing how quickly I got over it. Now that I’m thinking about it again, I feel more upset. And I’m glad for that.
One of my cousins, a creature that breathed, and felt, and saw, and lived is dead. It’s dead because a driver was careless or without care. This should cause me to feel upset.